Aspects of the Entheogenic Experience: Godhead or Cosmic Consciousness

 

We are nothing more than thoughts subjectively realizing ourselves in an even greater thought process, that we know as our universe which is part of an even greater process and so on........check this out....the creation of the universe happened just as fast as a thought comes to our minds. The universe is just that.....One Crazy ass thought ever expanding and contracting on itself. This One thought is so vast, beautiful, and impossible, that those who realize that they are just part of the thought process, end up going crazy........But.....HUMANS.....humans are a big part of this process. Bigger than they might realize.....We are the Seeds of change in the thought process, we are the enigma of life Rapped up in a fleshy exterior......When Jesus Christ said "I AM THE ALPHA AND THE OMEGA" he wasnt talking about himself alone, he was speaking universally......we are everything and nothing at the same time...............this is just my perception of life and I encourage others to express their perceptions as well because WE are in this together, and DONT LET OTHERS TAKE AWAY YOUR ABILITY TO EXPRESS what you feel is right! All you need to do is understand........thats all you were meant to do.........

Theredcalevera - a breath of air

Try to UNDERSTAND.....you are a SENTIENT first, and a HUMAN second. Try to remember why you came here...Please...
No longer will you have to maintain a happiness that should have never required any maintainance at all..ABRAKI..you need to wake up!!!
 Look at the condition of mankind, as a whole, right now....we've become jaded to life, love, happiness, and Peace! today, the thought of peace is just that; a thought. something only made for day dreams and fools. I'm not talking about the Ghetto peace we all blindly accept as truth. No...Abraki...I'm talking true world peace..The Egos and super Egos of the world have been driving us for too long.....and so we continue to fill our lives with more irrelevance waiting to see what destruction our ignorance will bring us, all while knowing in the back of our minds that it was all wrong to begin with....ABRAKI ABRAKI ABRAKI......Its time to wake up my friends.....

The Red Calevera - LSD/Cannibus

I cannot tell you what i saw, or what i experienced. I cannot even tell you what i felt, the time dialiation i experienced was intense. I remained lying down at all times upon my sofa and allowed the experience to incapsulate my soul. The following is a collection of thoughts and notions... feelings from the abyss. Like a Fisherman i am, merely catching ideas and showing the world. treat this as you will...

In The beginning there was everything. There has always been everything, and there will always be everything. Since the form or essence of everything you witness has always been in existence in one way or another exceeding any boundaries of the human prision known as time. In this there was no definate beginning only constant changing. The beginning stated previously refers to the space that filled our universe long before the earth and long before life. Eventually, however the Earth will return to that space and re-emerge again in a sequence with no specific order but intendly based upon the same criteria of infinite impossibility. It began in the space from which every child is born, from which every seed is hatched and from which every soul returns to. It is a space containing any and all knowledge ever learnt or thought of. It is every memory ever kept. It is a space filled with nothing but pure energy. A Collection of eternal spirits or essences. A collective soul. With in this space of massive energy is a being made completely out of its own entirity. This space or being has a collectiveness and a conciousness. It is all seeing and all knowing and perfect because it is the unity of all in existence. This conciousness is what humans may call a god.


This "God" loves patterns as it has always loved them. THis God was filled with three main presences. The Good or Positive The Negative or Evil and the Neutral or Unchangable. In Human science these things have been catergorized as Protons, Neutrons, and Electrons. This "God" liked to put order to his chaotically energic form. This "god" arranged some of the energy particles into patterns within himself he shaped thousands of different variations. Patterns are eternal but they are all generally made out of shapes that are recognizable. Our Universe is Eternal and Repetitive. All things connect in patterns. God knew that the patterns could would and will continue to grow larger. "God" knew the different patterns would eventually take thier own individual forms as they achieved their perfection. These forms are the four elements we recognize most here on earth. Earth, Wind, Fire, Water. Eventually the patterns gained enough knowledge to create the very earth itself. In this God made from his pure energy our MATERIAL reality. As he had many times before and would many times more. This creation took only a second in the timelessness of space that is the distance between us and god. But millions of years in the comprehension that is considered merely human. God pushed the earth away and into the deep abyss of our physical universe. Our Material world was made to keep us away from the mysteries of eternal life. However god stayed close enough for us to see it, tiny in the sky during the day which then moves to watch the other side at Night. Parts of god or individual souls seperated from gods form and were born on this material planet in the forms of humans, trees, children, Flowers, Bees, Birds, All living creatures anything that can have a story. This gave the earth motion vibrancy color and life. Everytime a Child is born he leaves the embodiment of god for the body created for them here in on earth.


We are all Spiritual Creatures on a Physical Journey. The Distance that god put itself from us causes some souls to get lost. They contribute to the energy that blows the wind turns the seas brings life to the fires Shifts the Earth and creates the miracles of reality. Humans have learned to channel this energy to light their lights to fuel thier machines. They do not know what energy truely is and it is not their fault. The Humans that abuse electricity and power for greed will return to earth in the next life ONLY to CRANK THE GEARS OF the machine they have built. Each individual soul has existed long before the physical and material world you see before you. IT chose to leave gods form and it chooses to return to it. When someones life is taken from us abrubtly its because they are required to return sooner or later and the sooner arrived first. In this you must understand we are ALL GOD all together we are perfect. To perfect yourself here on earth is to eternally become part of god. Humans were made to forget where we come from. Im also just not speaking of your mothers womb. We are all programmed and MADE to be ignorant. However we are also made to learn and have knowledge. We are here for own self indulgence, to attempt to attain all the things we cant have while holding a metaphysical pattern. Our purpose to perfect ourselves it's our rigourous concept to achieve eternal freedom. Our ultimate indulgence is to exploit everything around us. Our ultimate goal is to achieve a kind of love or timeless understanding that is not found in our material items. WE Existed before matter. Remember Matter is fleeting as is time. Time is what we put on top of our heads to remind us about things that matter but to put a time limit on the matter means that no one can truely attain everything they think they can on this physical level of existence. All thing happen because they were made or were ment to. Outside of our earth there is no true time there is no true "space" there is no true Emotion outside of our Earth it is perfect. Live and Die and it will all fall together.

Christopher Russel Wade Cornish - 2c-e(10mg), 4-aco-dmt(35mg), 2 Mdma Tablets, 1 toke of 5-meo-dmt at the peak

I was reading quantum physics when I saw "conceptual" "quantum waves of possibility" floating past my eyes two metres in front of me. I wondered where these "quantum waves" came from and looked to my left and I saw these "conceptual" "quantum waves of possibility" floating from between two huge dark blue glistening lips. These lips formed part of a huge face that was also glistening light and dark blue alternately. This face was beautiful, serene not male, not female but androgenous. I felt/heard thoughts coming from this 5 metre high "face"/being into my awareness - "you have always known that "something" existed before the Big Bang and you were right. I am the Source of Everything. What you are experiencing now is possible for everyone to experience whose mind is ready and open to this experience, when the time is ripe for them. There is something for you to do."

" I am much too busy right now actually", I responded without speaking. Then added (as I was deeply curious)," What sought of something did you have in mind ? " There was a meaningful silence and then the Source's response came into my awareness, " Go out into the world and explore the boundaries of cutting edge social adventures and this something will reveal itself to you."

" You are effective at one on one communication, but you will benefit from becoming adept at communicating with many others. Experience the connectedness of everything, its fundamental, we are all one." Then this "face"/being receded into a distant blackness that it was connected to, as part of its "body". 

Quantumspirit - Cannabis

T + 0:00 - Drank 1 bottle of robitussin cough, roughly 350 mg of DXM

T + 0:20 - I take a walk.  I am feeling a tiny bit strange, and getting itchy.  Vision seems to be getting a bit blurry or something.

T + 1:00 - I sit back in my chair and close my eyes.  I can easily feel that I am floating or falling.

T + 1:30 - Nothing too intense at this point.  Nausea begins and I throw up about 15 minutes later.  Wasn't expecting to!

T + 1:50 - Having thrown up, I drink a glass of water and smoke a bowl of weed.  Immediately after smoking, I lay in bed with the lights out and my eyes closed.  I knew that I was gonna be able to visualize things very well if I did this--but I had no idea what I was actually about to experience.

T + 2:00 and on - I am watching the closed eye visuals.  They are incredible!  The first thing that I notice to happen is that I can literally SEE my beliefs come unraveled, as if a string were holding them together and suddenly the string was removed.  I felt liberated.  Next, things I would never, ever expect to imagine were appearing before me.  Voices and sounds were echoing in this abyss of darkness that was the blackness of my closed eyes.  I continued to watch these visuals, and then it struck me--they were infinitely random.  Absolutely anything could come up--there was no limit.  The word "random" started echoing in my head.  This feeling grew stronger and stronger... the feeling that, oh my god, this is all going on between my ears!

The randomness continued to grow, and what happened next was without a doubt a vision of god itself.  I found myself screaming--I saw myself falling to my knees and screaming in praise of this amazingly infinite capacity for everything that was inside my head.  I can't remember what I was screaming.  It was something like "I'M YOURS!"  or "I'LL DO WHATEVER YOU WANT ME TO."  This power completely overcame me, but it also came from within me.  God is not separate, it is everything, and you are a part of it.

Once I had surrendered completely, it was like my tour of the universe began.  I was showed how the universe works, but believe me, I forgot everything almost as soon as it was showed to me.  It is something I could not comprehend in words.  I tried as hard as I could to save tidbits of information to carry with me in every day life, but it was like trying to hold onto precious seashells while being washed ashore by huge waves.  I'd keep losing them, and searching for them, but they were gone.  In the end, I was able to keep 2 thoughts:

The first was: "nothing matters."
The second was: "Zen is a joke."

Gopher - DXM and marijuana

Consumed 2/3 of a 60 seed HBWR Cold Water extraction, chilled as *Jello*, at 9:00AM. My guess is that this is about two 13 seed doses.
It tastes good. After eating 1/3 it starts to taste seedy (odd).
Pupils big in 20 minutes. Intense comeup, floaty head.
At 30min, he coughed a bit then ran to the bathroom to puke EVERYTHING. His face shivered as he purged.
SWIM feels better now and is still tripping.
Took one shot of 80proof to help remaining LSA obsorb.
SWIM's pupils have decreased a little. He's tripping well, but not as hard as before throwing up.
Head floaty, rest of body heavy.
Dreamly hallucinations. Walls splattering with undefinable colors due to shadows.
It's a cloudy morning. The sun keeps coming out once in a while.
When SWIM glanced at in the mirror it looked like he had a black line down the right side of his face.
SWIM thinks this dose is wearing off fast. In addition, time is very slow; it's only been 45 minutes.
[SWIM later notes that this is simply a 'second comeup']
Great flowing imagination of the dark blue wall infront of SWIM. He imagines a slowly rotating universe.
Pupils keep changing sizes. He hopes that it's not wearing off and will actually peak and have a long trip.
The next 30 minutes were lost breaking up bud and packing a bowl.
He realizes the main peak was at 10:30 (1h30m).
10:45; SWIM just smoked a bowl of dank.
Time is still really slow.
Lethergy coming and going, slowly getting better. Gaining energy/self back...head still feels floaty.
A flashy patterning overlay.
SWIM closes his eyes at 2 hours and sees a colored vertical or horizontal assortment of lines.
11:15 (1h15m) Suprisingly, pupils are still a decent size. SWIM didn't think it would last this long--like a plateau.
When he smells the other 1/3 of jello he coughs and cringes. Before the trip he didn't think it smelled bad. (increased sense)
11:30 (2h30m) pupils still big, not sure if he's coming back to reality. The sun is out now, SWIM's going for a walk with iPod.
As soon as he went outside, his vision was amazed. Increased field of vision, very pleased.
SWIM walked a mile, to a trail with swings in the woods.
When he starts to get tired he has great introspective on his life.
12:30 SWIM's back in his room. A change of surrounding is great.
Pupils are still large, surpsingly tripping well.
Vision is blurred, but everything seems so clear.
He's had great motion trails for the past hour.
Infected Mushroom's album Converting Vegetarians is amazing.
He doesn't want the beauitful euphoria to decrease.
Enlightening thoughts.
1:00PM (4h) Pupils decrease slowly.
Back to basline in 6h.
Very pleasent dose. :D
SWIM would only suggest 1/3 or less of 50 seed water extract.

SWIM - HBWR

The entire experience lasted 8 hours, and in the last 4 or so hours I experienced the dissolution of my physical body, and was taken into a space of Pure Loving Awareness.

The experience does not seem to fit neatly into any one category, and names like "Godhead" seem too ambiguous.  Did I experience the Godhead?  Was it a death/rebirth experience?  Union with everything?  It felt like a little of each, but none of these.  And I did experience fear at first because the world(s) which opened to me seemed more real than this one, and I thought that I would never come back to my body. 

As I let go of that fear, I was given greater insight into what Unity Consciousness is, feeling as though I were just pure, bodiless awareness.  The mantra that kept coming to my lips was, "Release All Limitation, and Allow More Love to Be," and it seemed that I was being told this personally, but also that it described the whole progression of the Cosmos, of all Life.  I felt that I had attained Enlightenment (or touched it), and was now completely spiritually awakened.   But I also realize(d) that it's a never-ending process.  Next time I plan to record all or part of the session.

Swayembu - The Ayahuasca Analogue Jurema

Okay. I took only 3 hits of acid. I went into my room and noticed as I was looking at my luggage, a complete spiral that my soul was connected to. I saw God at the end of this tunnel, it felt as if my soul was wrapping around heading towards this very powerful being, along with other souls. I felt as if I was headed towards heaven. Every single time i take it, I never have a bad trip. I believe that is so because I always give people money, just because, I give them my labor for free, and I inspire people, because that is what I do best. Everytime I trip now, it's a wonderful experience, like my soul is reaching towards God. I believe in what goes around comes around, and the level of good Karma that exists in my soul comes out completely when I trip, God lets me see it. It's real. What goes around comes around.

Mr. Wolynski - acid

5 people in a very beautiful house in a crowded city all of them with one dose of lsd (one square of blotter). Intention is to have fun and it is my second lsd experience. In general entheogenic experiences it maybe the 6th. Anyway these 5 people including me starts to feel the initial effects and realize that they can actually alter the or control the hallucinations by telling each other what they see or hear or feel(actually they don't). at first it is very fun because the one who hears this actually feels what the other says. It gets out of hand here: every friend of mine (4people) thinks that i'm too naive in general so all of them starts telling bizzare or very odd things and i started feeling pushed aside and lonely. And that was the start of a very intense introspective hallucinations such as these:

1- First we decided to watch "Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back" which was OK at first. But special effects such as handy-cam-like blurred visions or demons and angels talking on the shoulder altered the  whole concept of the movie and the subject changed in my perception and i started to feel that the movie itself was an apparatus for a divine mission that i couldn't really understand. I felt at one point that i possessed , with the help of my visual perception, a supernatural being in me.(a demon or satan or whatever you might call it)The funny thing is everybody next to me started to feel the weird energy that i had so they stopped the movie. And at that moment i started crying...

2- After crying a lot(only me crying) there was a unity among 5 of us. But the idea of a being possessed BY ME was getting a hold of me stronger every second. So i decided to lay down on a bed and just try to relax. To do that i found a blanket and got all of my body under it. I remember feeling that i was in a vast void , an emptiness, pure silence. Within a few seconds i started hearing beautiful voice of a women. i didn't see anything but i just heard a very long and melodic song. And although i just remember the very last line of the song ( and thats why i know it) it was in english. The last lines were "welcome to the world" and i started thinking that i am going to die that night. And my friends really had the worst time of their lives because of me. Because i was constantly saying that i was gonna die.

This happened in 3rd of January 07 after that i had continious auditory hallucinations and thats why i was sent to a mental hospital for 6 weeks by my parents and a psychiatrist. This was a life changing experience for me and very very special for me. I couldn't really tell whether these were "Godhead" aspects or "Visual and auditory changes" aspects of a entheogenic experience. Maybe both...

JaCo - LSD

Five hours into the trip my friend said he was having a bad trip, and that he wanted something to help make it stop. In my opinion it is an insult to the experience to turn down a lesson that is being given to you. You should see what it has to say. At that moment I felt as if an eye opened up inside my mind that looked at me sternly and implored me to help this poor soul. I was scared and felt a lot of pressure, and I tried to tell my friend that I always have a hard time at a certain point in the trip, but that the key is to see what it has to tell you. When you go through and surrender you will feel as if a knot in your psyche is unwound. But he wouldn't believe me, he refused, and he closed up even further.

It felt as if I've failed in front of the eyes of a god. Broken. I reclined in my chair, looked at my brother with my eyes full of tears; asking him if he was also feeling 'that'. Then it felt as if my spine was ripped open from top to bottom like the zipper of a jacket. Everything opened up and revealed it's inside. I saw my brother ablaze with energy and was able to see all his intestines and blood flowing through him. And there was this subtle dancing snake moving through his body like a puff of smoke, entwined into moving 3d geometrical patterns. Adorned with jewel like intricacies that had the colors that were very characteristic of his personality. We hugged and we merged; my dancing cloudy snake danced with his.

Our connection was broken, and we got lost in confusion. He kept falling away from me, dissolving into this gray mass of blandness. When I called out to him his eyes appeared again and his body materialized again. But then there was this tone, a low buzz increasing in pitch, until it snapped when it was screeching, and with that we were pulled to each other with a hard jerk. It was as if I saw his thoughts represented through the movement of his smoky snake. Then the snake started to twitch, and  started to look rotten. As if all the evil forces that worked into us throughout our lives was getting a hold of his soul and was wearing him down. When it almost died this black hole emerged in the centre of his face, and it ripped him away from me.

But then something opened up in me and I started to sing, and was able to pull him back and keep a hold of him. The light erupted again and we were engulfed with beautiful splendor. But when I got distracted the deterioration began again. This fluctuated on and off, until suddenly it felt safe again. My brother had a lot of things to go through and was a little catatonic, but I had the feeling it would turn out okay. I was ecstatic. When we reunited with our other friends I was connected to all of them through my smoky snake. Then I had the feeling as if I was receding into this tentacle like structure were millions of smoky snakes entwined to form a part of this super-being, but I could only fathom a fragment of it.

Dreadmanneke - LSD + Marijuana

Through recent episodes I have come to realize that psilocybin, perhaps unlike other indole hallucinogens with the exception of DMT/Ayahuasca, is an entity. It's pretty hard to explain in english just how this works, and I realize that it seems to resemble the type of affect that we associate with classical descriptions of clinical schizophrenia, but I will try. First the mushroom must break you down... and so you must spend the beginning stages of your visit receeding away and out of the idea of "you". This is often accompanied, at least for me, with a great deal of anguish as I realize fully the depth of the human condition, the tragedy embedded in our futile struggle to grasp and hold to the present. Usually there is a great deal of crying. It's best if you submit and surrender, makes it a lot easier.

But once the mushroom has succeeded in erasing the illusion of self, it emerges and takes control. I'm not sure if this disincarnate spirit is one or many, or perhaps there is no real difference. One is shown how over time forces or organized energies have acted, and continue to act through humankind. These are "spirits" that are greater than any individual, but by becoming incarnate in our bodies and acts, they are made real. For me, there was an explanation and visit into the lives of many of those that I know in order to witness the power of these forces or spirits. Many of these revelations had to do with sexuality and gender, so I should probably keep them to myself. I would describe it as a type of experience similar to the guided tour given Jimmy Stewart in "It's a Wonderful Life". One of the central messages seemed to be that language is insufficient to describe the motives of these forces...that to label something as "bad" or "evil" is a reflection merely of the linear logic employed by humans to grok their own limited cognitive landscapes. Another communication was a reflection on the nature of "home". The lesson was carried through the hackneyed phrase "home is where the heart is". I was shown that the heart is in many places, and so there is no one place that home can be. Additionally, the heart was seen as being at odds with itself, and this type of environment was not the greatest place to live or make a home. This resulted in the realization that home was exactly where I was at that moment, which happened to be sitting in my bathtub/shower in near total darkness.

The final lesson was a demonstration of how different powers can be manifest through symbols, slogans, voice, and hortatory speechmaking-which was a little spooky because this often can lead to mass genocide or authoritarian dictatorships. But again, there was a sort of reminder that power is just power, and although it maybe propelled into destructive potential, it inherently is neither good nor bad.

Q - Psilocybin

I was about 4 or 5 hours into the trip when i started copying the movements and mannerisms of a friend who was with me. The more I did it, the more i felt like i was watching my reflection in the mirror. I felt that by looking into someone’s eyes, consciousness was seeing itself. The more I did this, the more the details of the room faded away until there was nothing left but eyes and white light, and I heard voices I did't recognize. They were very excited that someone was going to "wake up" if they just kept following the train of thought they were on. When i realized they were talking about me I got scared and stopped because I was too exhausted to deal with anything more intense. If I had kept going, I don't know what would have happened. It was one of the most exciting, but terrifying experiences of my life. Once I realized I could stop it if i wanted to, the terror went away. It was just so unfamiliar.

Tommy Wangyal - LSD + Marijuana

 

 

 

 

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